Wow I started rambling time for a cut. 

lostperdue replied to your post: COLLEGE WOES

HUGS YOU!! idk if you are the type of person who likes advice or anything but my suggestion would be if you do not like business or are legit not good at it you should find something that suits you better! that’ll make everything easier for you

Yeah… :( I just don’t really know what to do. I feel like accounting would fit me because I like doing math and I like making sure things are in order and organized and running smoothly. I also don’t really like handling people too often. I’m worried because a lot of businesses are jerks and I don’t want to work for a business that has ethics I can’t agree with, and I ‘m also worried because so far accounting concepts haven’t made as much sense as I think they should and I’m apparently really terrified of failure?? So. I don’t want to get into something that’s as far over my head as I feel like it is sometimes. 

So I don’t… really know. My business teacher was all “play to your strengths” and I’m trying, because I think the job itself would suit me, but… I don’t know. Urg. I’ve only taken one business class so I kind of think it’s too early to tell if I’d be good at this or not, but I’m just so nervous. 

Plus… well, I thought about going into business because I think it can be pretty versatile, and I could make a pretty good living off of it. The more I looked into it the more I thought it fit. And then I started thinking of accounting because an older friend of mine said Western’s accounting program is the best of their business degrees. And, again, the more I thought about it the more I felt it was a good choice. (Until I start second-guessing myself, but whatever.) 

The problem now is that I might not even go to Western? I’m way fucking behind in my community college—like, seriously, I should be done by now and I’m only maybe halfway through, and I have no clue how fast I can catch up—and I was thinking of moving to California with Bryanna once she finishes school, but I might be finishing at Whatcom fairly close to when she’s finishing there, and I don’t really want to take another four years of school up here after that, or maybe more because I’m a loser who can’t get things done, and should I even go into accounting if I was just doing it for this school, or should I start all over with the school search and look down there and pay out of state tuition or

fuck what do I even do. 

I’m really sorry this was way longer than I wanted it to be, I guess I’m more stressed about this than I thought I was.